Dear Working Mom

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Dear Working Mom,

The transition from stay at home mom to working mom is not easy. I took two years off when my daughter was four to six years of age. I felt her babyhood slip away and I wanted to hold onto it with all my might. I want to be the mom who brings cupcakes to class, is always volunteering for everything and is completely present for my baby before she is 18 and leaves me.

The past two years were great; I got to know my girl, to be there for her, but now that I’m working, her expectations are much higher. She doesn’t understand why I can’t be at every birthday party at school. I explain that it’s usual for the parents of the birthday kids to come. I can’t go on every fieldtrip/learning expedition. 

I have been there; I’ve been present, I’ve overachieved, I’ve set the bar high for myself, and now I have to create a new bar, one where I am fulfilling my own needs as well as hers. She is more independent and I have to give her that independence. In 10 years, when she goes off to college I want to have something for me. I felt like I wrapped my whole purpose in life into being her mother and I will always be her mother, but her needs will become fewer and fewer as she gets older and I have to be able to let go.

It’s not easy; I have my mom guilt.

She has to go to aftercare everyday and I’m afraid she is feeling abandoned, but when I pick her up she is making bracelets with her friends and doesn’t want to leave. She is ready for me to let go and I’m ready to let go too, but being ready and taking action are two very different things.

Now that I am working I feel more fulfilled, more like a contributor to our family. I’m not saying working is something every mom should do. I applaud the stay at home moms. I couldn’t do it. My house was never clean and I hated making dinner — I still do. I was lonely. It was the right decision for my family and me. My husband helps a great deal; we split house and parenting responsibilities right down the middle. If we didn’t, I don’t think it could do it all, but my husband is very supportive of me being fulfilled in life. 

Have you made the transition from stay at home mom to working mom? Tell us about it in the comments!

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One Response to Dear Working Mom

  1. Rachel McClellan December 27, 2016 at 8:59 pm #

    Oh Momma! What a great post! I have just made the transition from Stay at Home mom (of 4 years, 2 kids) to a working mom! It is so tough but so awesome in so many ways! I have so much guilt, but I do know I am doing the right thing and something my girls will be proud of one day!